He's DEAD to ME !

I hate him.

I never wanna call him ever again for the rest of my life.

I love you with all my heart. I want to be the best for you!

I L.O.V.E. HIM.

Turned out to be, I was actually wrong. I dont exactly have proof but i believe him. It could be his friends who sent that message(to a girl).

So instead of being mad at him, not trusting him, and wanting to break up , i chose to be something different, well something noble.

Why dont i just believe him? 

Why cant i let things just be what it is?

Why cant i live life as it comes !

So what if he might leave me in the future ( which he swore he wont, and i believe and i truly hope he would not do smt like that to me). So even if he did, He would actually be doing a huge favor to me. I mean he's not the only fish in the pond rite. Gawd, that is so lame. Anyways, i do alrite for myself. Its not soo hard to find someone else. But it definite will take a hell of a long, lengthy, extensive, and painfully enduring period of time to forget him in which might even consist of teary, sleepless nights, uneventfull Friday nights, boring weekends and worst of all the ever so dreaded lonely days. It might take years to forget him. Or forever. Or i might never forget him.

But, SO WHAT ? So What if all that nightmares happen ? 

I basically dont even wanna think about it. I wanna live life day by day. Tackle problem as it comes.

I mean why worry about tomorrow when you already have enough trouble today.

Plus, i want to live my life. Life itself is fudging short and i definitely wanna live it to fudging max. Haha

So therefore, coming to my point, i want to be...

WAIT !!

~~I FORGOT ~~

wtf, i tottaly forgot what i wanted to write...

well anyway i will continue when i remember.